PACKING UP.

the school boy's out, the ekonomista's in. =p

little things i've learned

or some things that have been repeatedly taught to me but not kept in mind during this one-hell-of-a-semester.

: i am the worst groupmate you could ever have, especially if i am under severe stress.
: i am suffering from numerous psychological illnesses.
: habitual sleeping in classes do not necessarily lead to failing marks *wink*
: 1130-1 is my permanent siesta time.
: nobody really cares if you wore the same thing twice in a week. the only ones who do so are those people who cannot do anything sensible.
: caffeine does not prevent me from sleeping or being sleepy.
: long vacant periods can be very unproductive.
: it's hard to get on a Philcoa-Jollibee jeep at Vinzons in the late afternoon. mas mabilis sa AS/CAL.
: walking long distances is no big deal if you're with fun company.
: when the sem break is nearing, that's when you get to be chummy with your classmates. *sigh*
: always come to the classroom way before classes start and sit at the front or middle rows if you want your prof to remember you beyond the semester without kissing up to him or her. haha.
: my weekly after-class activities can be costly.
: it is more cost-efficient if you just read your lectures from the computer instead of printing it or having it photocopied.
: always bring an umbrella. no exceptions.
: always make sure you have change for jeepney fare.
: photography is a hobby i'm determined to pursue, if i have enough resources to acquire equipment. haha.
: you really put a bit of yourself in your cellphone (miss ko na siya. haha.)
: it is easy to forget, but not to forgive (the story never ends).
: avoid walking along a crowded lobby and/or corridor if you just woke up from your nap in the tambayan.
: it feels nice to be in the company of people whom you barely knew and yet you feel warm to him and/or her.
: you can have loads of fun without compromising your academic endeavors.
: time management is still not in my vocabulary.
: it is pointless to be regretful about decisions you have made. live with it.
: it feels good to avoid cramming (for once).
: locking yourself up in your room while listening to something like Chris Daughtry's Home is bad for your emotional state.
: if you miss someone, and you don't want to, keep yourself busy.
: real friends are hard to find. if you do, keep them. Ü
: it pays off to never giving up on one thing. like enduring stampede-prone lines for last-minute tickets. haha.
: i miss that summer experience, the weekly tambays. heck, even the regular barkada texts (our form of group messages).
: moreover, i miss my blockmates and orgmates so badly.
: the one thing i miss most is my high school friends. mcdo naman tayo minsan. just like the good old days. Ü
: life is good. real good.

[more soon. after this 2nd round of hell. haha.]

the candles are lit.

september is just around the corner, and the celebration isn't about to end. happy birthday gals! =)

post-vacation blues.

yup, today marks the end of my six five-day break.

source of my blues:

: make-up class in accounting. on a holiday. for the entire afternoon. well, it does have its perks.

: 2nd long exam in math (calculus). good thing we already did sample problems last week.

: 2nd long exam in economics. at 730 in the morning. i'm counting on my good ol' short-term memory (especially if you have slept in 7 out of 8 lectures).

: reaction paper in psychology. on movies that deal with memory. and i still haven't got a copy of the prescribed titles.

: org application requirements.

: the finals of the UP History Challenge.

thanks to Egay for the mini-sem break, even though i wasn't able to make use of the precious time to prepare for the aforementioned school work. it's so much better to stare blankly at the ceiling and cram than to study and see a counseling psychologist. long story.

mellow.

the silence was shattered.

the laughter died out.
everything else came to a halt.

and the tears kept on falling.

for no apparent reason
other than a clueless mind.

good thing the rain was pouring.

no one could see it coming
just a shoulder to cry on.

**

a little something that an emotionally-unstable individual like me cooked up.

maybe it's stress from school, academic or otherwise.

what the heck, who am i kidding.
not even a pending failing mark in world lit is not an excuse to be melodramatic.

**

anyways, i had a very interesting weekend. (by weekend, i mean late fridays, saturdays and sundays. haha.)

*me and kuya Chalkie (CSSP-Peers) placed 2nd in the elimination round of the UP History Challenge! besides irritating freshmen who insisted that the Internet is a more reliable source than a UP History book written by a historian (how illogical can they get, replying to an argument of a professor with that statement.), everything was fun.

*done with the Rifle Pistol Team interview. i was expecting a 'mass comm' brand of interview (read: variety show). but no - it was interesting. i really hope i could finish the application process. small world alert - my sister's high school friend is a team member. hehe.

*my Stat 101 professor, a UP Concert Chorus alumna, performed during their fund-raising concert. i was out of cash, so i wasn't able to catch her grooving her heart out. tsk. haha.

**

that's just about it.
be posting when my life moves along a normal curve again.
or properly balance my accounts.
or learn how to make the most of short-term memory.
just kidding.

a downpour.

it's so much better to think of your warm bed than waking up for a 7 am make-up class. wala naman talaga akong class ng Wednesday! oh well, natulog din naman ako sa lecture. just like conditional probability, the chances of me falling asleep in class given the weather and sleep deprivation is 1.

**

i love the rain. a welcome respite from the heat. plus school work. *grins widely*

conversely, i hate it. makes me think too much about random stuff that i'm trying to suppress. kaya siguro ako tumatanda agad.

**

to the girl who...

...knows how to kick some butt
...wakes up earlier than any normal human being
...still looks great even with braces
...has great pipes (na hindi pa pinaparinig sa akin!)
...will join us in SE!
...who isn't (joke!)

happy 18th birthday ruby...este shai!

[a camphone is really handy during special occasions like this. thanks for a great day yesterday! (kahit na medyo off ako after ng Rush Hour. must be my dinner. hehe.) hope you enjoyed your special day! =)]

for real. =)

One time, i was online, and feeling depressed - not sure what to do to save ties with new friends I just met 4 months ago.

A friend from elementary PM-ed me. She asked if I was alright and if i needed anything. Upon reading those lines, I just broke down. And she listened, just like the good old days. Never mind the fact that we have rarely been in touch for 5 years.

**

It was the best feeling in the world - knowing that there's at least one person in this world whom I could call a true friend (especially if you are someone like me who long held the notion that i will never have any friends for real).

Make that a few persons.

Old and warm faces who were there to stop me from letting go of probably one of the best - if not the best - things that I will ever have. I regretted the fact that i took some of them for granted even after staying with me through tough times. I'm just glad that time gave me the opportunity to rekindle the ties we shared.

Add a number of new faces who saw through my numerous flaws and managed to bring out the best (and worst) in me like no one did. It was one heck of an emotional roller-coaster ride. I was fortunate enough to experience it with these guys.

**

The following day, i entered 307 - which was already full of energetic and eccentric characters - grinning; knowing that in time, some of them will have left their footprints in my lane, together with countless others who have made a difference in my life.

dream on.

honestly speaking, i have been procrastinating on a lot of school work - i'm very grateful i haven't flunked anything yet - and i still feel the powerful urge to take lots of sleep.

i tried and succeeded to wake up during the REM (rapid-eye movement) phase of my sleep. i did remember my dreams, which included a mix of trivial characters (like them) and situations (like that). basta, basta.

she was there with him, holding hands with their wands out. running towards the end of the long corridor, student militants wave their banners to express their outrage over an oppresive law. instead of chanting crude remarks, they were shouting out theorems on getting derivatives. i woke up, shouting 'Madaya, madaya!.'

i got to watch HP after taking the math exam.

**

still 'lovin it after 14 years of mass media awareness, collective membership advancement, and outrageous adventures. here's to the UP Mass Communicators Organization - my first family in UP. =) i excused myself from participating in the celebrations - i don't deserve to feel the happiness all of them worked hard for.

**

i knew there had to be a reason why i started late to review for a quiz tomorrow: classes are suspended.

can't help but remember the high school days; when our classes were suspended several hours after official announcements.

Diliman Preparatory School - sounds familiar? it does now, when it was all over the news. i'm not happy over the fact that many people are asking: 'diba yung school mo dati yung may "bomb threat?'

eksenang buhay-iskwela

Psych 101 creative thinking activity: list down things that exist uniquely in pairs.

1.) chromosomes
2.) chambers of Philippine Congress
3.) BUY 1, TAKE 1.

**

a city-wide power outage occurred and yet we were in a dark classroom, writing downright silly reasons why we are more satisfied with spending our budget on more burgers than Coke without ever mentioning utility in our paragraphs.

**

classmate: zzz...
English professor: you, no sleeping inside the classroom! wake up, or else get out of the room.
me: zzz...
English professor: ...we have the right and duty to resist tyranny, like Prometheus...

**

tired, in pain, confused. but i'm still waiting for that time, while doing the best i can to make up for my mistakes.

sabog.

barely 2 weeks into classes, and i am already physically, mentally and emotionally drained.

accounting is vague, i already slept soundly in my economics class, found out in world lit that there's more to the iliad than an account of a chauvinistic war for an unfaithful woman, am supposed to review for a chapter quiz in psychology tomorrow [but i opted to resurrect my stagnant blog], my future saturday mornings will be occupied by statistics, and calculus is so fast, it feels like we're dismissed right after the prof enters the room.

then, right after classes, we hang out at math building [blacklisted na kami, like i am with my organizations.] before eating somewhere around the vicinity of the campus [para bago, Philcoa!]. couple that with the occasional mood swing, and what do i have? silence. i'm getting sick of myself.

peyups.com users mini-EB [pseudo C2 ad]
ate kc [astro_boy], maye [ashterr], kam [kcorbin], jau [*secret!*] (bingkatortz and ashchi are not in the pic)

it feels good to meet someone new. like filling out blank pages in your life's scrapbook. =p

school's in session

i'm now officially a college sophomore. so i am prone to being nostalgic whenever i see freshmen walking around the campus in packs. haha.

experienced the longest enrollment so far. enlisted manually for 3 subjects [got the last slot in a Stat 101 class, used my charm so i could immediately enlist for another Psych 101 class after cancelling my first one]. got OC over filling out the forms [bawal ang lampas sa box! goodness!]. expected a lllooonnnggg line at Palma Hall for payment. ayun, i was able to pay after reaching the building.

more next time. :)

lesson learned - finally.

'Dats wat frnds do. And d kta inaackaso,im lookng out 4 u. Dats wat frnds do, Db?'

i realized how stupid i am to doubt their efforts to reach out. i realized how selfish i was to expect so much from them. i realized how much i missed by choosing to pretend that everything was ok.

i thought it was impossible for me to let go of the past. it can be attainable if you take your time and muster the courage to do so. i thought that putting myself in the corner would make all of us happy. it only made them worried sick. i thought self-pity would ease the pain. there is a much better cure - trust.

before, i used to think that it was best for me to keep my problems to myself. not anymore. there are people out there willing to be my life support. i'm just oblivious to that fact for all these years. Dats wat frnds do, Db? :)

tagged

RULES:
1. Write about how much you are addicted about something.
2. Don't forget to include the percentage of 'addictedness' towards that thing.
3. All with one condition > The total of the percentage must be 100%
4. You MUST tag others and continue tagging but please don't forget to explain the rules and notify that person so that they know they had been tagged.

internet [20%]. surfing the net consists of 3 activites: blogging, Peyups forum-lurking, and e-mail. oh, count in friendster.

mathematics [6%]. before, i tried to love numbers. now, i am attached.

food bingeing [14%]. enough said.

tambay [20%]. lately, i've been going home late [pardon the redundancy] in the evening. i can't resist good company, even if it means threats of grounding.

cartoons [7%]. yeah. thanks to younger siblings, i have an excuse to catch the latest episode of Foster's Home or a new Disney Channel original movie.

SMS [13%]. i have renewed interest in unlimited texting. i have sent around 3000 messages in the past 2 weeks alone.

reading [5%]. reading my sister's novels for the nth time. and i never get tired of it.

lomography [10%]. flowery term for 'spontaneous camwhoring.' but seriously, i love taking pictures of stuff i deem aesthetic or comical every so often.

sleep [5%]. being a nocturnal being does have its perks. but i need my share of sleep once in a while.

still searching for others who haven't been tagged yet. oh, the tag is courtesy of gerome. =)

**

it's a good thing i'm leaving CMC for the School of Economics. goodness, it took me 7 hours to get the dean's signature. i was on the verge of tears as the deadline approached. apparently, they have no sense of urgency, even though i told them a couple of times already that i needed my clearance and permit to transfer yesterday! never mind that i missed our study group and professor's surprise for rona's debut. [happy birthday rona! sorry i wasn't able to greet you personally.] add to my dilemma some irksome UPCAT-passer wannabes who thought they own the Office of the Univ Registrar. as if they could ace the exam with that attitude.

now, red tape is one thing i'm not going to miss about CMC.

pic is part of design proposal for the new CMC shirt. thanks to ate marian. =)

of joy and angst.

it pays off after all.

the sleepless nights,
the group studies [or should i say, group tambay? hehe.],
the migraines from solving ridiculously hard problems,
the group texting,
everything.

now i really know what it feels like to get one. =p

**

the rain keeps on falling...
...depression starts to sink in.

we learn from our mistakes.
i beg to differ.
because of my fear that my past will continue to haunt me
i continue to commit the very same mistakes i made in the first place.
it's really hard to let it go. but i'm trying.

looking back,
it wasn't worth the trouble, after all.

[thanks sir and study group. you're the best. =p]

life support

thank you CRS, for giving me a slot in Math 17 Z2-B. i wouldn't have met these wonderful people [except for ryan, we've known each other since our DPS days] and our cool professor. mag-prerog kayo sa math 100 namin ha? =p

a happy thought

a very happy 18th birthday to my buddy Ray Dagdagan! legal ka na! haha. more great blessings for a very creative, hardworking, observant, stylish, bright, good-looking, funny, serious, friendly, and great guy. =p

sumama ka sa outing, kung hindi. hehe.

y-vote [quoted]

Philippine media stresses the importance of voting for the Filipinos to avoid the mistakes of the past. it's a good thing it did not imply that the voting process supplies the point in the political sentence.

reforms in the electoral process should be addressed. being a democratic country should not stop us from weeding out unqualified candidates, banning political dynasties, and disqualifying party-list groups who do not represent marginalized sectors of the society, among countless things that keep us from holding a fair and clean election.

it is indeed hard to point out candidates who have the genuine interest to serve the people. with thorough scrutiny of the public, people can choose the lesser of two evils - candidates who are intent to lay their hands on the gold and the glory and candidates who have their minds set on tipping the balance of power in their favor.

in the society, there lives a group of young, opinionated people who certainly have their share of life stories to tell and beliefs to uphold. i, for one, belive in their capacity to initiate long-term changes in the aforementioned landscape not only by exercising their right to vote for the people that best represent themselves but also engaging in activities that serve to achieve the common good.

in the heat of it all.

found a comic strip of Calvin and Hobbes on writing. it reminded me how i miss writing - plus the two of them are really cute - so i changed the look of my blog.

my summer so far...

i managed to gain a few more pounds.
i managed to pay an occasional visit at my high school to work on the yearbook.
i managed to survive two weeks of math [3 more weeks to go. more migraines for me. just kidding.]
according to my prof, he saw my friendster profile [now, i wouldn't be surprised if he finds his way over here.]
i managed to attend a friend's party. [and will attend another one tomorrow]

happy 18th birthday cathy! [april 29] muntik ka na naming mabuko kagabi. aral muna ha? hehe. =p

numb3rs

[behind the scenes - pre-summer term]

arrived at College of Mass Comm at around 8. got my form 5A by 8.30. waited for my program adviser until 10 (i am a bad boy. i discreetly fell in line in between my blockmates since i came from the news room where fellow Journ majors are desperately hoping for the resurrection of the CRS website) . filled up my form 5 (good thing i brought an ordinary ballpen. bumakat ang sulat sa ibang forms!) and had it assessed by 10.30 AM. got it back at exactly 3 PM (good thing i stayed and kept my temper under control). payed tuition at Palma Hall by 4, where I met a grade school friend who eventually accompanied me in claiming my class cards and going home.

the delay is courtesy of RealTime enlistment. thanks to realtime enlistment, validation of form 5as took an eternity (since some students might illegally get classes with no slots left. plus we're talking of CMC here, where normal assessment takes an hour.), connecting to the CRS website took an eternity (it was past 10 and still the connection sucked. big time.), and it seemed that manual enlistment and prerogative would be history.

**

summer term has started. professor's cool. reminded me of my PE instructor last sem. malakas mang-alaska. hihi.

add meaning to your life.
strive for infinite excellence.
distribute goodness to others.
keep it real.
be a difference.

i am trying to love numbers right now. hope it loves me in return.

more soon. got to finish the proving the existence of the cancellation axiom. *sigh*
EDIT: done with homework. thanks ray! =p

grade-conscious mode.

matapos ang isang maikli at medyo 'light' [puro GEs na naman ako] na semester, lumabas na ang mga grado sa CRS [na sinusumpa ng mga isko na kukuha ng summer classes. isaksak niyo sa baga niyo ang RealTime enlistment].

nakakatuwa at nakadalawang 1 ako - sa prof na magaling at masaya at sa prof na kabaligtaran ng nabanggit. unang sabak sa major, sabog. sign ata na dapat talaga akong magshift-out. ang aga mag-release ng grade sa PE kahit hindi credited ang units. nagpay-off pala ang pagtyaga ko sa kanyang madugong side-comments habang sumasayaw. muntik nang maka-1 sa natirang subject. 0.5 na lang at hindi na 1.25 sa soc sci 2. pumalya naman ako sa finals ng math 1. ok lang basta makalipat ako para hindi siya ma-credit. haha.

sa totoo lang, may pakiramdam ako na kulang ang effort na binigay ko sa mga klase ko last sem. pero nangyari na ang nangyari, i'll just have to live with the fact that i should stop cramming ASAP.

hay. umandar na naman ka-GC-han ko. buti na lang at umalis na ko sa lebel ng ka-GC-han nung highschool na iiyakan ang mababang grade, hahanapan ng ipapa-correct na item sa quiz or exam [kahit na wala na talaga], at pagsumpa sa mga kaklaseng nakakuha ng mas mataas na grado kaysa sarili.

animated.

ever since Pixar came up with 'A Bug's Life' or 'Toy Story,' [can't remember which one came first] i fell in love with animated movies. not that i am childish [well, maybe i am.] maybe it's a form of escapism, seeing that animation looks real, but it isn't [imbento ko lang 'yan. haha.]. i'm so addicted to animated flicks, in a sense that the only mainstream animated movie i missed on the big screen was Cars [we watched 'The Omen.' majority wins eh.]

just watched these 2 animated movies over the past few days with my younger sister. i'm not a credible movie critic and making reviews are not my thing. =p

Happily N'ever After. a young lad working for Prince Charming seeks to prove that happy endings are not by-the-book. add to that the save-the-whole-Fairy Tale Kingdom from Frieda; the evil (and hot) stepmother, who unofficially took charge while the wizard was out-of-town.

i have to give credit to the creators for this refreshing take on fairy tales. but it would be nicer if they added more humor in the plot. heck, even cinderella is bland! (i'm uncomfortable seeing a brunette ella.) the only character that saved the whole thing is Frieda (*Frieda's evil laugh*). oh, and throw in the uber-clueless Prince.

Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. now this is what i'm talking about. the turtles are (sexy)back! haha. they must save the world from an ancient myth (which, is not actually a myth because it's for real) while trying to keep their brotherhood from falling apart.

though i'm not a huge fan of the cartoons, i like how the movie incorporated the elements of love, action, drama, comedy (courtesy of Michaelangelo) in a single storyline which is not dragging (yet it was bitin. specifically the fight scenes.) plus points for the visually-appealling CGI landscape. cowabunga!

[this is surely an achievement for a blogger like me who always rants about school and often has a difficult time thinking out-of-the-box. haha.]

fly high!

feeling a bit nostalgic this week. witnessed the commencement exercises of both grade and high schools of my former Alma Mater, Diliman Preparatory School (it is in not affiliated with UP and is not just a kinder school. haha). attended the elementary grad of my younger sister as her official photographer - who got told off by my former teachers because of a trivial thing like going in front of the stage to get a photo of his mom and my sister. attended the high school grad to congratulate my friends + former schoolmates. in both instances, i was with high school classmates and friends + i felt like i wanted to experience graduating all over again + i got irked at the opportunist individual hogging the mike and stealing the graduates' moment.

welcome to the real world, batch 2007!

the heat is on.

according to a feature in the lifestyle section of a well-known and oftentimes left-leaning broadsheet (don't get me wrong - i love reading it.), everyone has their 'Bora' story to tell. well, i have a different story to tell.

i love summer. who doesn't? more pounds to gain from being a house bum. more time to go to the mall and just gaze at the displays. more liquids to lose from the wretched heat.

for the past few years; i spent my summer here in the city, doing school-related stuff when school's already out. or splurging on frequent trips to the nearest air-conditioned entertainment/lifestyle stop (okay, so it's a mall.). the last out-of-town trip i could remember was a trip to Tagaytay; when I was still 11 (ah, so young and innocent.), courtesy of my mom's office.

oh well, this summer's no different. i'm taking up advanced units so i could catch up with the curriculum. plus working on the yearbook (lost the address, yet again.).

enjoy your summer break guys. =p

pre-summer blues.

soc sci 2 exam done. nosebleed, thanks to Karl Marx and his materialistic views. now, only 3 requirements separate me and an early summer break. but i have to pay the price by taking a summer class that will alter the path i am taking.

hope i could meet the demands called for by shouldering additional responsibility. by that, i mean being an officer of an organization for next school year. =p

still don't know what function to attend. time could have separated the two so i could have the best of both. but no.

reality check: it IS hard to always be the listener in conversations.

got this pic from kea a few moments ago. brings back the thrill of playing paintball for the first time (not to mention the pain of being hit by a pellet) and reminded me of other fun moments from our 1st block bonding.

i love k6.

PART TWO OF GEOG FIELD TRIP SOON. HAHA.